Caught in the middle....

What a horrible weekend.....whoever is reading this, please pray for me...I'm just trying to make it through this week.

Results

Dallas' first words were: Dada, tractor, Mama
Adam's first job: Bonanza
My first job: Old Navy.

Growing

Rolling River God / Little Stones are smooth / Only once the water passes through
So I am a stone / Rough and grainy still / Trying to reconcile this river's chill


Lately, especially through circumstances, I've been very impressed by the Holy Spirit to pray for my heart. To pray that I become a joyful person, regardless of the fact if my life is going as I think it should. Happiness is fleeting, I want a steadfast joy that is manifested in my spirit because I'm continuing to believe in God's absolute soverignty. I can't speculate all the reasons, but perhaps God has allowed me and Adam to go through some things this past year to teach me that I my affection for the Lord is too often based upon my circumstances. Not to say that I don't love the Lord, because I do. He's my life, my hope, my everything.
There has to come a point in my walk, where as a child of God, I stop basing my faith and relationship with him on the way I feel at a certain time. I don't think that this is the truth in everything, but in the really hard times it has been. The Lord is so gracious towards me, abounding in Love, because I know I don't deserve His patience, but I'm so grateful for it.

Sometimes raging wild / Sometimes swollen high
Never have I known this river dry
The deepest part of you / Is where I want to stay / And feel the sharpest edges wash away

I hate going through hard times, as if anyone really likes it, but it's so true, if you allow Him, God will reveal to you, as He has to me, not necessarily the purpose or the whys, but more so how He wants me to be continually shaped for His glory.
I want to look back on my life, and despite my circumstances, say my heart was only blessing God. This is not an easy tasks, and it is not to say I can't present my requests to the Lord, because if I were Him, I'd get tired of hearing me..haha.
But isn't our life's purpose but to ultimately fellowship with the Lord, and to bring Him glory?!

But when I close my eyes / And feel you rushing by

I know that time brings change / And change takes time

When the sunset comes / My prayer would be just this one

That you might pick me up /And notice that I am Just a little smoother in your hand

River God ~ Song by: Nicole Nordeman
(This song means a lot to me, I first heard it the summer of 1999 while doing summer missions in CO)

It's official

Yes, folks, I'm a soccer mom, and loving every minute of it! However, I didn't really realize how dangerous soccer can be, even for 3 and 4 year olds!

Dallas started soccer this spring. He really tries hard, running and kicking the ball. Last weekend, at his first game, he made the first goal of the season! Great job, Dallas! Here are a few pictures and video of his game. He's #2!

Praying before the game

Look at Dallas run!

Protecting the goal

Ready, Set, Go!

Practicing warming up.

Eden plays soccer too. We saw her after her game, and I couldn't pass up this picture.

Funny faces

Run, Dallas, Run!

Got it!

Yesterday, after several attempts, I snapped a picture. (If you're just now seeing my blog, read post below).

Random I know, but....

there is this crazy bird flying to all my window ledges during the day tapping at the window with his beak and hitting it with his wing. I don't know what he thinks is in our house or why he's possessed, but he's really starting to freak kitty out! Go away silly bird. I've been trying to snap a picture of it, but once he notices I'm present, he flies away.****I hear him again!