Missing My Mom

Grief is mysterious thing, at least it has been for me. Sometimes I think I have a hold of it, but other times it just hits me during the most inopportune moments! I know my mom is with with the Lord and it brings me so much joy when I think about her being with God, but I miss her, plain and simple. A good friend of mine died during college, and I remember at her funeral the pastor said, "Death is so hard, because it was never a part of God's perfect plan." That just kind of struck me, and I've always remember that. We're not supposed to have to say good-bye.
It's been almost 7 months since my mom went to be with the Lord. I can't believe it's been that long!! Sometimes something will happen and my thoughts will turn to her, wishing I could tell her about it. Me and my sister talk about her a lot, and thankfully we've been very supportive of one another during this time, really my whole family has. That has helped me so much. It's just the times when someone talks about their mom that really hit me in the gut and reminds me that she's not here anymore and I can't call her up just to talk. This post was brought about because I found a picture of me, my mom, and my sister taken in March 2007 at a family reunion in Houston. This is not a "woe is me" kind of post and I do okay most days, but just felt like writing about her...just me on this journey called grief.



But I hold on to this hope and the promise that He brings
That there will be a place with no more suffering

There will be a day with no more tears, no more pain, and no more fears
There will be a day when the burdens of this place, will be no more, we’ll see Jesus face to face
But until that day, we’ll hold on to you always

Lyrics by Jeremy Camp: There Will Be A Day